TERM ENDER ( ENCHANTED )

December 21, 2013

So my college best friends and I went to Enchanted Kingdom last Wednesday to kind of celebrate the end of second term. The last time I went there was prolly 2 years ago already, with the same company as well.

We had our Monito Monita (aka exchange gifts) first before we head to EK. I received Lang Leav’s Love & Misadventure from Maryse and unfortunately, someone already gave me the same book a couple of weeks ago.  The funny thing is, if I am not mistaken, I’ve told her before that I already got a copy of it. So now, I have 2 copies of Love and Misadventure… Pero okay lang yan Maryse! Thank you, still! #itsthethoughtthatcounts #hehe

Anyway, theme parks; I have a real love for theme parks. I’m actually a fan of scary a$$ roller coasters. If only we have Six flags and Knott’s Berry Farm here in the Philippines then (my) life would’ve been so much merrier. Pictures!

That’s it! I’m so glad we get to spend time together before the break. It was a fun-filled Wednesday for us, indeed! Such a great way to end the term (though technically, exam week palang) lol  Hope you guys are enjoying your Christmas break as well! 

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“THINGS HAPPEN FOR A REASON.”

July 6, 2013

Matty, my other pup (a 7-month old toy poodle) passed away this morning. He was diagnosed with parvovirus last Monday along with our other dog. I thought he could make it because we were able to bring him to the vet just in time. And because he was such a brave and strong boy. He was confined for 5 days, hooked with dextrose because he won’t eat. I went to the vet Monday afternoon to check on how Matty was doing, but unfortunately the vet wasn’t around so we had to go back the next day. Tuesday; I went home immediately after class. I had to see my baby.. I visited him and he was still listless. Matamlay na matamlay pa din sya. The vet said “Ngayon lang yan tumayo nung dumating ka.” Nalulungkot ako. It hurts so bad to see Matty suffering. Before I left I told him “Wag muna.” …… that was the last day I saw him breathing. I didn’t get to visit him on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday because I’ve evening classes. Kaya naman I was excitedly waiting for Saturday kasi finally makikita ko na si Matty!!

Saturday morning, Pepe (our helper/cousin) woke me up and told me the most heartbreaking thing I never wanted to hear. The most painful thing I’ve ever heard. “Patay na si Matty.” I was literally in shock, “Ha? Ano’ng nangyare?!”

…..

Matty wasn’t able to keep up. He didn’t survive. The virus took over him.  I can’t believe it, hindi ko talaga matanggap. I wanted to see Matty for the last time so I asked my driver to get him from the vet. I saw him in a plastic bag placed in a box. At first I refused to open the bag because I don’t think I could handle seeing my super kulit Matty “asleep”. In denial pa din kasi ako that time, until now actually. Pero shempre gusto ko talaga sya makita for the last time. Kuya driver opened the plastic for me and then I saw him, wishing he was still breathing pero hindi na talaga. He looked like wet rabbit. I fondled him one last time, doing what I usually do to make him fall asleep. Nakakaawa sya. I went back to our bedroom and bursted into tears. Bakit kasi? I was crying for five hours straight. I had to let my feelings out…. so I did it on instgram. I want everyone to know how much of a sweetie pie Matty was. Tears were streaming down my cheeks as I compose my message. Hindi ko talaga kaya. While in the shower, I was literally “ngumangawa”, I can’t remember the last time I cried that much.

Hanggang ngayon hindi ko pa din malaman kung bakit. I ask myself “Hindi ba ako karapat-dapat magalaga ng aso?” “Hindi ko ba sila naalagaang mabuti?” “Am I a bad mommy?” I feel really really really really really bad about what happened. Seriously. Hindi ko na maimagine na wala ng Matty na sasalubong sakin from school. Wala na akong kalaro. Wala na akong baby, wala na, wala ng tinira eh? Back to the usual maybe? Yung mga draw na wala pa si Matty and Duke sakin.  back to basic.

I just hope people won’t blame me for Matty’s death (not again!) I remember when Duke died, some people told me “Ikaw kasi eh.” “Hindi mo naalagaan” “Kung inalagaan mo siguro ng mabuti baka buhay pa sya ngayon.” I didn’t kill my dogs. But if that’s what you think well then, sige blame all you want. Kahit pa joke mo pa sabihin yan, nakakaoffend ka. It’s not even funny and you’re not even helping.. Might as well shut your mouth.

Well I guess most of you don’t know how bad it feels and how painful it is to lose two important things (almost) at the same time. Nakakaguho ng mundo, pero ganon talaga.. things happen for a reason. I keep on telling that to myself. Yan din yung palagi kong sinasabi when people open up to me about their problems and all. Now I know how difficult it is to believe that THINGS DO HAPPEN FOR A REASON. Kasi most of the time hindi mo alam yung rason kung bakit. Wala kang ideya. Parang you’re just fooling yourself, parang sinasabi lang sayo yon para gumaan yung pakiramdam mo. But sadly it’s not working, it does not make it hurt any less. What’s worse, nalulungkot ka pa lalo. But at the end of the day you’ll come to think of it.. Marrealize mo din na, “Oo nga. Siguro nga. Things happen for a reason.” and then you’ll learn to accept things and move on. C’est la vie!

Baby Matty, you know how much I love you. And you know how important you are to me. Hinding hindi ko kayo makakalimutan ni Duke. You babies will forever stay in my heart. When I grow up and have my own family, bubuhayin ko kayo ulit. And I am making sure na hindi na kayo babawiin sakin. ’til we meet again. *tears* Wish you were here still licking my cheeks as I cry. How ironic; Yung nakakapag-pahinto sakin umiyak noon, ay yung rason kung bakit ako umiiyak ngayon. Hay Matty!

source : mainemendoza.com

Do soulmates exist?

 April 26, 2013

The popular notion of a soulmate meaning one person with whom you are destined to share your life.

Do they exist?

Do you believe in them?

I’m starting to believe it doesn’t. Which sucks, cause I used to believe that they do really exist. I’ve always thought about my soulmate; who is he, what’s his name, how does he look like; his eyes, his nose, his lips, his face. Mostly, I question God, have I already met him? Or do I already know him, or does he know me.

Sometimes, when people are in love, they tend to tell their selves that they have already met the one for them. But often times they’re wrong. Sometimes we idealize people/relationships and convince ourselves that we are in love, soul mates, whatever. But there are instances where something so remarkable happens that’ll make you realize that you are wrong. That what you have been thinking all along was wrong. You were wrong. You were wrong about this certain person. Then you tell yourself “maybe he/she’s not yet the one for me.” Then another person will come into your life, you fall in love, same thing happens, same line; “maybe he/she’s not yet the one for me.” And so on.. You think it’s magical and easy, but no. It’s tricky, because you don’t choose who you fall in love with (it is called falling in love for a reason) also, you don’t know who you are going to end up with. You don’t know anything about the future. Things change, as well as people and feelings. You may be happy and in love today, but you may also find yourself crying tomorrow.

Cause in reality; people fall in love quickly because they’re not thinking and seeing what is truly there.. truly. At some point some will say, certain people have changed. But the truth is, you just know/see who they really are. If you choose to stick with that person, care for them, be happy with them and still accept them for who they are no matter what happens (and vice versa) then that is love. Naks. And that’s what really matters.

Anyhow, the existence of “soul mates” is more a matter of belief. ;)not everyone believes in it. But I do, I just don’t believe that there is only 1 though, but there are not millions either. There are probably a limited number of people whom you will “click” with on a soul level, people who are psychologically, socially, and sexually in sync, people with whom you share a deep emotional, spiritual connection but.. fortunately we end up with just one. In other words, you can love many times and ways, but there will be one, not like any other.

Personally, I believe that God has a specific person for us to marry and to spend the rest of our lives with. But then in the back of my mind, I think you can also learn to love anyone you know and be happy with them for the rest of your life IF you continue to work on your relationship with them.

This whole soulmate thing is confusing, maybe because I haven’t found mine yet. But one thing for sure; true love exists. Yun nalang. True love and soulmates go hand in hand, I must say. The one who will be with you no matter what until the day you die is your true love and your soulmate. Not all people are lucky enough to find theirs though. It’s rare but it’s precious and indeed a very very very beautiful thing.

No copyright infringement intended. These are from Maine Mendoza’s blog and I am just re-posting this to reach those who would want to read it but cannot access her blog.

Haters gonna hate

June 22, 2013

Haters.

Do you have a hater?

Do you have haters?

Or are you a hater? Do you eat a lot of peanut butter and jealous sandwiches?

If yes, then you came to the right place. Go on and continue reading.:)

People are entitled to their opinions and should be free to do so as long as they articulate their feelings with respect for others. But when people decide to share their opinions in a way that is meant to hurt another person’s feelings, that is when they become “haters”.

Here are some reasons why haters hate you:

Haters hate seeing you happy – Seeing you happy (happier than them) annoys them so much. They hate seeing you smile. They want you to be sad, miserable and all the other negative adjectives you could name. Haters hate seeing you happy in life because their job is to stay true to their motto: haters gonna hate.

Haters hate seeing you succeed – Haters would kill to see you fall. Being successful makes them realize that they’re failures. And it makes ‘em feel bad about themselves. As long as you’re working on improving yourself, they’re going to hate some more. Why? Cause haters gonna hate.

Haters want to bring you down – They want you to fail in life as much as they hate seeing you succeed. They want to make you feel that they are much better than you. They want you to realize that you’re just “nothing” “wala kang sinabi” “wala kang binatbat”. Because seeing you fall is the only thing that could make them feel good about them-pathetic-selves. Doesn’t matter what you do, haters gonna hate.

Haters are insecure – Maybe because you’re too awesome? Your awesomeness soaks them up. You do really really amazing things. You’re a beautiful being. You are talented. You are smart. You’re a good person. They are jealous because they want to be you. You have this personality they wished to have but (unfortunately) didn’t. And maybe this distinct personality of yours is admired by people. Haters hate seeing people like/love you. So they bring you down to bring themselves up. Because they want everything to be just about themselves.. So they hate, haters gonna hate.

Haters are threatened/intimidated by you – You are probably above average. What they see in you may be an uncomfortable reminder that you are above them. It’s not your fault you’re gifted. Haters will hate on you at any rate, haters gonna hate.

Haters have nothing better to do – Their lives are (obviously) boring and they have nothing better to do so they aim to bring you down. That just sums up a hater and their job as a hater. Really sad to think that they do such bad things just to make them happy and feel good about themselves. Oh well, haters gonna hate.

Haters are bitter about life – They want everyone around them to be bitter. Misery loves company. They may have just been unlucky and have experienced a lot more bad things than others and it makes them bitter about life. And they want you to feel the bitterness they been feeling as well through hating on you. Haters gonna hate!

Haters lives suck so much – You know your haters don’t like seeing you happy, they hate seeing you succeed, they have miserable lives with issues they can’t get over. Their lives have to suck that much if they’re going to take time out of their day to not only think about you but formulate schemes to try to achieve their hater goals. Haters gonna hate!

There! You can’t please anyone, you don’t even have to. Because at the end of the day, there’s always going to be someone to hate on you, someone who doesn’t like who you are or what you’re doing. The best way to deal with them is to just simply ignore them. Don’t fuel the fire. Don’t let them affect you. Because if they see you’re affected by their hatin, they won’t stop. It’s because they want to see you miserable, remember? Don’t be threatened by them. See them as motivators instead and let them motivate you to become a better person. Don’t let your haters bring you down.

They just need some attention.. and maybe a little love and acceptance. They are damaged and they don’t even know it yet. They hate because they want people to notice them. Because they want to be praised, so they’d feel better about themselves. But at some point it does not happen so they feel the need to bring others and their success down. They are jealous, hateful, and resentful. They cannot accept other people doing better than them, so they try to bring them down a notch.

Try not to stress/worry so much about things. Sometimes we can over think things and worry too much, then we forget to enjoy life. People think what they think, they will always have something to say about you. Don’t let it bother you too much.. don’t even let it bother you at all. Truth is; not everyone might like you, but the most important thing is finding the people that do.

If you’re a hater, you have issues. Work on it and stop hating. Love life and yourself as well. Embrace your flaws! Treat yourself with kindness and treat others the same way. :)

PS: If the reasons stated above aren’t the reasons why you think people hate you… then maybe you’re just annoying. You do really annoying stuff and it apparently annoys people. Lol it happens.

No copyright infringement intended. These are from Maine Mendoza’s blog and I am just re-posting this to reach those who would want to read it but cannot access her blog.

Melancholic Nights pt. 1

January 31, 2015

It is one of those melancholic nights where I find myself contemplating about how my life has been going lately– cruel, to some extent. I was incredibly happy the time before life decided to throw some lemons at me, and I must say that it hit me hard. I honestly did not see this coming. Well I kind of did, but I didn’t expect this to start off this way. Well.. I also kind of did, fine, let’s just say I didn’t expect this to start off this bad. I guess carrying out my optimist side and remaining positive didn’t work as for this matter. Everything is starting to go wrong and I don’t think I could just simply go on with this. I keep on hurting over the same thing over and over again, and I want it to stop, but I don’t think there is anything I can do to make it happen. There is nothing I could do to please people into believing the truth, or at least just listening to whatever I have to say. I want to let them know; I want to be understood.

Being a pessimist is hard especially when facing a problem. Considering the fact that every problem has a solution, people like me tend to keep on the negative track and start thinking that things are never not gonna get better. That maybe things are meant to stay this way. We (speaking on behalf of the pessimist club) always generate an incredible amount of mental and physical stress. It feels like you are trapped inside a room with no way out, without anything else to do but cry for help. There are other better things to do aside from wallowing on the shit show of your life but at times you just refuse to do it. Sadness takes hold of you leaving you depressed and devitalized; and the only way to release the tension is to cry.. and cry.. and cry.. and cry. It does help a little but it doesn’t really take the pain and the sadness away. I guess I might have to deal with that until I-don’t-know-when. *sigh*

Frankly speaking, I am terrified for I know that this is just the beginning; I know, for certain, that bad days are about to come. Everyday, I force myself to think that God won’t ever put us through something we couldn’t handle, to at least keep me from worrying. That life itself is a series of challenges, whether large or small, and everyone has to go through it. But having said that every problem has a solution, I’ve come to believe that everything will be alright eventually; it might not be today or next week or next month, but in God’s right time,

everything will be alright. 

( ( ( ( ((((( POSITIVITY ))))) ) ) ) )

No copyright infringement intended. These are from Maine Mendoza’s blog and I am just re-posting this to reach those who would want to read it but cannot access her blog.

I dare you to figure me out

                                 Nicomaine Mendoza. 19 years old. Cuinary Arts student.

Uhm I don’t really know how do I start telling facts and stuff about myself. I find it very hard to describe myself in a positive light without sounding arrogant. I don’t know why is it so hard to do, but I can only either sound humble or cocky. I guess the best way for you to know more about me is to visit my blog often. Though to me there’s nobody that knows me better than myself and I’m always able and ready to describe myself whether it be my “good” qualities or my “not so good” qualities.(I guess haha) Nobody is perfect, and we have to find happiness within ourselves regardless of our personal qualities when it comes to “who” or “what” we are.

So I dare you to figure me out. ;) But wait! You can say anything about me, as you please, bahala ka sa gusto mong isipin tungkol sakin. :) I made my blog to express my thoughts and feelings, not to please anyone; not even you, whoever you are.

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WHY “THE PESSIMISTIC OPTIMIST BELLA”?

I look out for the bad things, know there is bad that can happen to me, and expect bad things to happen to me. I do fear everyday that one great and terrible thing may happen.. This is when I feel paranoid, angry or otherwise negativly towards the world. But deep down, when the clouds of confusion are gone I realize thatgood can happen and has happened to me. My life is a wide road with obstacles, distractions and terrors but it also has friends, fun challenges and lessons.

The way I see it, good and bad can and has happened. I just look out for both so I can never truly be surprised. :):

No copyright infringement intended. These are from Maine Mendoza’s blog.and I am just re-posting this to reach those who would want to read it but cannot access her blog.

Maine Mendoza wearing Superstar Pharrell Supershell Shoes

Look at the shoes.

Pharrell creates a unique, energized look by placing art on the iconic shoe's shell toe. Architect Zaha Hadid has been hailed for transforming our ideas of the future with new spatial concepts and dynamic, visionary forms. Pharrell has long been a fan, saying, "Zaha's designs are just like her buildings, they augment reality forever."

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So what if I love making ugly faces in pictures. Pshh !

So what if I love making ugly faces in pictures. Pshh!

Eating ensaymada is a struggle

Eating ensaymada is a struggle

Watching myself on TV like

Watching myself on TV like

My Bebe Love

My Bebe Love is Official Entry to Metro Manila Film Festival happening in Dec. 25, 2015. This is Maine Mendoza's first movie ever. Aldub Nation expect a monstrous blockbuster about this film.

'High School Musical' inspired snapchat video of Yaya Dub

Maine dubsmash the hit single of Vanessa Hudgens in Disney series " High School Musical " Gotta Go My Own Way.

First appearance of Maine Mendoza in teleserye show

This video clip is Maine Mendoza's first acting appearance on tv show (teleserye) Princess in the Palace outside the world of  Kalyeserye

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WHAT’S NEXT?

Happy 2nd of March! Gee, I’m about to bid my goodbye to my teenage years in a day! Anyway I want to let you guys know that I am finally and officially out of school! Yes, I am officially unemployed. And yes, I now consider myself as a “grown up”. SUCKS.

The commencement exercise was held at PICC Complex in Pasay the other day (28^th of Feb). Feels weird, now that I am already done with school stuff. I still cannot believe that the next thing I’m supposed to do is look for a job. I kinda miss school, yeah, that quick. I miss the feeling of getting up early for morning classes, seeing your friends everyday, asking for allowance from your parents, studying for exams/quizzes; basically everything about school. And it is kind of sad to think that those days are over now.

Going up on stage and receiving my (fake) diploma didn’t feel as “magical” as everyone thinks. It felt normal(aside from feeling anxious, well that is a given); there was really nothing astonishing about it. It felt good though, to think that you are fortunate enough to finish studies unlike other people. Also the fact that you are finally done with school. I was never really thrilled by thought of me graduating, maybe because I am not excited about the next chapter of my life, I don’t really know.

Looking back at high school; high school life was so easy going, well compared to college. And if I were to choose which do I like more, I’d say 50/50. There are moments in high school that are incomparable to college and vice versa, you could tell. My high school life was filled with lots of entertainment. I was untroubled back then, though; I didn’t worry much about anything aside from keeping “good” marks. All I ever did was to simply have fun and make the most out of my high school years.
I was never the studious type of student; I was more like the happy-go-lucky one. The happy-go-lucky type that (still)studies but never really aimed to get the highest mark in class. (..In my dreams?)

Junior year was the best year of my high school life; and it wouldn’t be that fun if I had a different set of classmates and a different class adviser. Me and my friends were always in trouble; and I didn’t regret getting in trouble back then for those turned out to be the best moments of my high school life. It is just so nice to look back and reminisce all the good times with good old friends.  A lot has changed when I entered college, though.

When I started college, getting up in the morning felt like dragging myself out of bed. I am two hours away from school so I have to get up three hours before class to prepare and everything. I hated waking up early. The first year of my college life was the worst; freshmen students are normally given the earliest class schedule there is (in which we got to deal with).
The freshmen year somehow felt like an extension of high school; you have the same set of classmates in every subject, and I’d say that was the only thing I liked about being a freshman student. But as the saying goes, nothing is permanent; block sections were gone on the second year. But, you are now eligible of constructing your own class schedule that go with your preference. You are lucky if you got the schedule you want, and if your friends were able to take the same section as yours. Which is in most times (unfortunately)does not happen.
There was a time where I was fortunate to be included in the dean’s list so I was able to enlist my subjects ahead of time; I was so glad because I got my desired schedule. Unfortunately, my friends didn’t get the same schedule as mine.. most of the sections that I chose were already full by the time they enlisted. So what happened was, I had the most convenient schedule among my friends, but I was alone in every class for four months. The only advantage of knowing no one in a class is you get to meet, interact and be friends with other people.

My college life was plain simple (and somehow boring). I was never active at school; I was never a part of any organization, clubs and such. There were also a couple of (cooking) competitions but I never bothered participating at any… I just don’t want to involve myself in such kind of affairs; I was totally contented with just attending classes.. nothing more.

But I do have a regret as a student..

And that is for not studying/trying enough. I mean, I wish I studied hard back in high school so I could at least achieved something greater than merely finishing college; I wish I had a chance to study at my “dream” university. I wish I had a medal for something I am good at. I wish I was active in clubs that could’ve piqued my interest. I wish, I wish, I wish, I wish. Though I did get fairly decent marks, I feel as if there was so much more that I could have done, school-wise. And if I could turn back time and re-do everything, (now that I know how shitty it feels to achieve nothing) I definitely would. 

Everyone is capable of doing whatever everyone else is capable of, that is a fact; it is just a matter of choice and motivation. And I regret not motivating myself to do well and give my best shot in what I am doing; I regret settling for just “good”. That, as I’ve mentioned earlier, has got to be my biggest regret as a student. I hate how I only realize all of these just now.. now that I am finally done with school. Ugh.

If I were to give an advice to students, that would be to do more academically and aim high. Wouldn’t it be nice to graduate with honors and other awards? Be active in school, join clubs, participate in competitions/activities etc. Grab all the opportunities that you could, acquire all the knowledge and skills that you could. Never stop learning and improving. Never settle for just “good/fair”, challenge yourself to do more. Kaya n’yo yan! Kung kaya ng iba, kaya niyo rin!Take my advice, I didn’t use it anyway.

Now that we’re on to the next chapter of my life, I wish myself good luck and all the best. I may not know what I want to do for the rest of my life (yet!), but I will never stop seeking. I know in time, all my questions will be answered. I know I am meant to do something and be something, it is just at the moment I am having a difficult time in figuring what that is. I am still quite young and I still have enough time to know myself more and discover what else life has to offer.
All I know for sure is cooking and Culinary track is not (meant) for me. I don’t want to say I misspent 4 years of my life, but.. yeah, basically.

Ciao, student life. ID 11165138, signing off.
(meganon?!)

 No copyright infringement intended. These are from Maine Mendoza’s blog and I am just re-posting this to reach those who would want to read it but cannot access her blog.